You were here.

It hurts to feel so I remain blank

A part of me knows this is real

but my heart tells me it’s a mistake

My heart hurts when I think of you

When you left, a piece of me left too

I’ll never be the same..and I’m proud of that

All that’s left are photos and memories slowly sneak back

Although I can’t see you, I can still hear your laugh

You were in so much pain, and now that you are free

Your pain has traveled to me..and I’m thankful

This heartache is proof that you were here

It’s a permanent scar that I hold dear

I can’t face reality, and I don’t think I ever will

This hasn't gotten any easier

There is so much in me that you have instilled

Will this ever get easier?

This isn't a loss. You were never mine to lose.

But I have lost a part of my self and you brought it with you.

How do people move on when they refuse to feel the pain?

You were here. You are here. The proof is that we miss you. 

Drawer Jam Relates To Life

If you know me, you are probably aware that I like to over analyze every simple situation to it's fullest. I have some shocking news for you...I did it again tonight. It all started when I decided to bake cookies...because duh...cookies create deep moments. Wait...they don't for you? Well, that's awkward.

Anyways..as I was saying-I decided to bake cookies. The cookies were finally finished baking..and when I say finished, I mean extremely undercooked (yum). Don't mind the conjoined cookies, they are in love. Ok..enough rambling. 

Once they were finished..I went to grab a spatula from my kitchen drawer. I pulled the drawer quickly and realized it was jammed. I continued to pull/jerk the drawer quickly and..nothing. Jammed. A few moments later, I took a deep breath and decided to pull the drawer very slowly..and wallah-it opened just like that..with no struggle. 

It then dawned on me...life experiences involve many jams. We tend to attempt to get out of them quickly..with no patience. Sometimes life jams require a deep breath and patience. When yanking the drawer..I rushed it with no patience or deep thought. 

Next time you have a life jam...inhale then exhale...and have some patience. It will work itself out and then you will be able to enjoy your amazing undercooked cookies. 

Food for thought? eh?